This past year has been a little busy. Among rebranding the business, launching my new product, reshuffling my staff, starting a mastermind group, and working through client turnover, it’s sometimes difficult to establish a rhythm, let alone set aside time to reflect on where I am and where I want to go.
I admit to being a stubborn perfectionist – someone who refuses to quit – even when all signs indicate that I should give up or to take a break. I also admit to not knowing what to do with myself when all the ‘work’ is done. If it’s actually ‘done,’ I find a way to revise it or create even more work.
At a regular visit to my doctor, I discovered a few health issues. Don’t worry – nothing major, but enough to make me realize that I sacrifice a lot of ‘me’ (and my husband, for that matter) for the business. And, as many small business owners do, I keep on pushing.
Hard work is my talent – in fact, it’s what I consider to be my only natural talent. Hard work is what got me from working a dead-end job to having a profitable business. But, hard work is also my vice. When there is nothing else left to do, I work. When work is done, I work. I keep going that extra hour on a project thinking this will make it better, when I know that sometimes it’s actually making it worse.
Having struggled with balance many times before, I know that if I want to make a change in my life, I have to take action. Not on Monday, not on January 1, not when ‘this-that-or- the-other-thing’ is finished… but right now.
And so it begins. I plan to eat better, sleep more, exercise more, and pay more attention to my body. It’s easier said than done – this I know – but I realize it MUST happen in order for me to continue to do what I do well, which is ‘work.’ Now there’s an interesting statement. In order to work more, I have to work less. Sounds funny, but it’s becoming clear to me now. And this is why balance is so important. No matter what, we are still human beings. We were not made to be machines, in any capacity. Why I think/thought being a machine was something that was expected of me, I’ll never know.
As many are preparing for the holidays – with spiced cocktails, chocolate chip cookies, and maxed-out credit cards – my New Year is beginning now. My New Year begins with taking care of myself – first and foremost – and making myself a priority. My ‘work’ will now be taking care of me… so I can take care of work!